Catch Up

I've been absent for a few days (Jon reminded me) so I'm doing a little catching up.

Jon's birthday was a success. He loved his cookie cake, the decorations and the gifts I got him. Seeing him so happy, puts a smile on my face. I love him.

We took Lauren to the airport last night. I hate when she has to leave. Sometimes I secretly wish that she would finish college up here where she's much closer. I'm selfish, I know.

Yesterday I came into work, logged on to my computer and a really crappy red X popped up that said "Danger: Your computer has 30 infections". Dun dun dunnnnn. Yep, a virus. IT took my laptop and have been working on it ever since. They gave me a temporary laptop, which gives me limited access to, well, pretty much everything. I feel so useless. I'm actually sitting here waiting for emails to come through. I've never been so bored at work before.

At least I get to leave work early today...but it's only to go to the dentist. I don't mind the dentist, but I always have to mentally prepare myself for it. I don't know why...it gives me a sense of ease I suppose. I never understand why the dental assistants talk to you and ask you questions when they're working on your teeth. It's not like we can give them an answer. I just end up feeling like an idiot speaking jibberish. I think they do it on purpose.

Well, that's it for today. I'll go back to patiently waiting for emails to arrive.

Excited!

I'm so excited; which is good, because I need all this fun to get my mind off of the recent heartbreak. Lauren is finally home...although I haven't seen her yet. But just knowing that she's back here makes me feel so happy! Not sure what we'll do yet. But I definitely need to have her come over. Maybe we'll have a sleep over and watch lame shows all night like old times. Perhaps we'll break out the cookie dough and laugh at each others lame jokes. Damn, I miss her.

Jon's birthday is tomorrow and I'm SO excited! It's so hard to keep things a secret. I find myself *almost* spilling the beans on what I bought him. I'm such a goof. I got a lot done today and I have to be sneaky to make sure everything is taken care of by tomorrow. He's definitely got a fun-filled day ahead of him.

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To top off my excitement, Jon is planning a secret getaway for us! After we lost the baby, we were thinking about taking a mini vacation, just the two of us. We couldn't really think of anywhere, so we decided to put it off. But, being the amazing man he is, mentioned last night that he's planning our vacation and that it's a secret. He's the best. I can't wait...we definitely need this. Traveling with him is one of my favorite things to do!

Short and Sweet

I had a breakdown last night. I feel like such a baby about now. But I just needed to cry. I miss my Dad...and I haven't talked to him since we lost the baby. I just needed that "dad reassurance" I guess.

Today is a much better day though. I have a lot to look forward to. Lauren is coming home from college for a few days and I'm really excited to see her! I hate that she's 400 miles away from me. Jon's "golden birthday" is also this week. He'll be 26 on the 26th and I've got a few tricks up my sleeve.

Until then, I'll keep sipping my coffee and staring at my utterly boring cubicle walls. I sense a desk change coming...spring cleaning perhaps.

New Beginnings

So...here I go. My first blog post. It's a tad bit bittersweet, but I find it appropriate at the moment.

Jon and I found out we were pregnant earlier this month. After testing, and testing...and testing; low and behold, two beautiful pink lines. We couldn't believe it. After being absolutely in love with being pregnant for, oh I don't know, about a week or so, it ended as quickly as it happened. Thursday, March 18th I had a miscarriage (or what I think was a Chemical Pregnancy). Whatever the hell it was, it sucked. Complete devastation for both Jon and I. The promise of being pregnant and having a baby was gone...just like that. It's crazy how much emotion you feel. However, through it all, Jon was by my side. He was (and is) amazing.

Since going through this, we've realized how excited we were about having a baby. We were born to be parents. Hell, we're even thinking about giving this another try in a few months. Getting my body back to "normal" is the first step. Until then, the baby books and all other baby crap we've bought is going in a cute little keepsake box. On to the next chapter in our life...